I'm really tired of all these.

Monday, August 10, 2009 ,

3:44 PM

sis choose to run away, choose not to face it.
but i choose to face it together with mum.
i can't choose to run away from reality.
because, mum needs someone there for her.
if i choose not to face it, she'll be even more depressed.
what can i do? i asked myself this question throughout
the whole night. but i can't seems to get an answer....
to side by my mum or stand by my dad? i wish, i'll
never get an answer. what can i do? so many things happening
at the same time, i can't accept but i have to.
with a possibility of going for a major operation if things
don't get well and forcing myself not to let those tears
roll down my cheek, forcing a smile on my face as if
it doesn't matter to me. but no one knows. i didn't want
all this to happen. i want everyone to be together.
no one knows how hurt i am. no one knows how lonely
i am..........
i had wanted dad's love, dad's care & concern..
but i got none of it.....

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