I'm really tired of all these.

♥

SHIMIN
170194.

Remove and I'll peel off your skin!
Hero: Xuewen.
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Base codes: xavqior and Stac'ey

Friday, August 28, 2009 ,

9:19 PM

LOUSY TRAINING, LOUSY DAY!

i kept asking myself if whatever i had done today

is right or wrong. and it seems like, i'm made a mistake.

i notice that J had been 'disappearing' suddenly. so i

kept my eyes on him after he came back lor. then i found

out that he's actually going out to smoke with B and JF.

i went to Mr lee and told him. GODLY. Mr Lee was super

duper fierce!! on my way back to ISH, i suddenly felt that

maybe i should just take it as i don't know anything. but still,

the thought that i'm the captain came into my mind.

i wanted to make this team a disciplined one. i can't

just let anyone disappearing from training.

started to feel lousy...

then, KS gave attitude to coach and was being kicked out

out FB. GODLY! i asked myself, why is this happening?

i'm just a super duper lousy captain. i FAILED to be a good

leader, i'm not a good leader. i kept asking myself, why wasn't

i able to disciplined? is it because i'm not as strict and fierce as

last year? or is it, i'm NOTING in my juniors' eyes? and now,

i'm asking myself, as a leader, what is my job?

lastly, was told to tell those graduated seniors not to come back

during our trainings. godly. being a leader is not easy.

with so many juniors under me, and, my vice-captain is only sec 2.

i don't know how to handle.....

i'm a lousy captain..

i totally break down on Wednesday. DM talked to me and i was kinda

being forced to talk about something that i took a long time to put it

behind me and take it as nothing had happened. and now, i don't know

how to face it! what am i suppose to face it???

i can't face it all alone by myself, but i can't avoid.

what can i do? there's no one i can confront to..

in the past, i still have him.

Wednesday, August 26, 2009 ,

5:37 PM

shimin, stay strong! stay the way like you had always
been. jiu suan xiao rong shi jia de, ye yao xiao zhe mian
dui yi qie...

Monday, August 24, 2009 ,

7:09 PM

Aha!! it had been quite some time since i update my blog with a
proper post. lols.. hmmm.. will start going for PE lessons and FB
training starting this week:D well, can't be bothered about my
back anymore. it doesn't seems to get any better. lols. i can't
possibly watse my time and wait till it fully recover bahx..

had been busy with stuff?? xD hmmm.. Guitar lesson on sat
was fine. time flewike don;t know what.. hahas. after lesson, went
Lot 1 for dinner with Da Yi and Xiao Yi. reached home around
9plus? hahas. late eh? xD

hmm.. went ah ma house on Sunday. Ah ma can talk le!! :D
but, we all know, she won't last long.. hmmm.. will make an
effort to go visit ah ma once a week:D after that, went JP
with mummy. wahaha~! went to NET and bought 2 tops:D
i love the pink and purple in colour de top. wahaha~!

after that, mummy went out while i headed home and chiong
homework and do revision. i'm so guai~! xD hmmm.. oh,
starting to becoeme more and more bhb in front of my FB
juniors. heehees. seriously hope will get to be this close with
that batch till i step down. lols.

went JP after school with Jengila and Kenneth. went LJS for
lunch then pei Kenneth go Wallet Shop buy wallet. after that,
me and jengila went to buy balloon. Helium gas de leh! i paid
3 dollars for it. cause mine will last for 3 days:D very nice.
then will fly here fly there in my room. xD

after that, pei jengila go home change and take some work
and came my house to do homework. lol. me and jengila
went crazy la. hahas. xD hmmm.. PE tomorrow. FB?? VB??
math test tomorrow. GAMBATEH!:D

My balloon!!:D

Tuesday, August 18, 2009 ,

7:25 PM

haven't been blogging for quite sometime.. nothing much too. lols.
currently, headache about PRINTER. computer totally went dead
and now need to install the printer to laptop. GODLY! will update
a proper one soon..

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY EDDY! ( i owe him de. xD)

Thursday, August 13, 2009 ,

6:59 PM

hmmm.. had been feeling quite stress recently!!!
especially during today's Maths lesson. GODLY~!
but still, managed to survive through. Zzzz.
was told that only half the class passed the Maths test,
oh well, i'll be in the FAIL group. Zzzz.
godly. Bio test tomorrow. Zzz.. have yet to complete
HMT compo which due tomorrow!! english CA reflection
or whatever you call that which is due tomorrow!! Mahs homework
which is also due tomorrow!! history homework which is also due tomorrow!
someone just kill me right now! and i noticed i left my file in school.
or did i lost it? GODLY~ hopefully IT'S UNDER MY GODLY TABLE!

went Lot 1 with Adela, Eunice, Millie and Jia En. had lunch, walked around,
went to the playground and played with those small children and we got chase
out? the damn security guard said it's for children between 5-12. but the board
states it's DESIGNED for children between 5-12, not FOR children between
5-12. very shitty security guard!!! after that, walked around again and took
MRT home.

godly! godly! godly! feeling super duper.. i also don't know what's that stupid feeling.
Zzzz.... seriously, i need a break.

Monday, August 10, 2009 ,

3:44 PM

sis choose to run away, choose not to face it.
but i choose to face it together with mum.
i can't choose to run away from reality.
because, mum needs someone there for her.
if i choose not to face it, she'll be even more depressed.
what can i do? i asked myself this question throughout
the whole night. but i can't seems to get an answer....
to side by my mum or stand by my dad? i wish, i'll
never get an answer. what can i do? so many things happening
at the same time, i can't accept but i have to.
with a possibility of going for a major operation if things
don't get well and forcing myself not to let those tears
roll down my cheek, forcing a smile on my face as if
it doesn't matter to me. but no one knows. i didn't want
all this to happen. i want everyone to be together.
no one knows how hurt i am. no one knows how lonely
i am..........
i had wanted dad's love, dad's care & concern..
but i got none of it.....

Sunday, August 9, 2009 ,

9:11 PM

hoho~! finally got my guitar~ but it's not purple in colour..

i bought a Black one instead:D i like the feel and the sound.

gosh! hahas.. so happy about it la! lalala~! quite expensive though.

150 for the guitar and 20 for the guitar bag. hahas. The boss very

nice. the original price for the bag is 28 then he give me discount.

wahaha~! 170 can buy lor. lols.

will be chionging homework tomorrow:D

my BLACK Acoustic Guitar! :D

my Classical and Acoustic Guitars! :D

P.S. i only slept for 5 hours. Zzzz.

Saturday, August 8, 2009 ,

10:12 PM

went to see physician with xiao yi in the afternoon. godly sia~!
the physician crack my body until like don't know what sia. Zzz..
can hear the bones cracking lor! GODLY~ then after everything,
he said my bone is out of position. i don't know how i should react.
i thought it isn't serious.. until when i reached home, my dad said
it's no joke. cause it's my spine bone out of position. Zzz..
no more trainings for me.. tsk tsk.

guitar ended at 7.. super LATE right??? godly. after lesson,
went Lot 1 with xiao for dinner. wahaha~! LOT 1 GOT Kobayashi leh!
so happy~ went to eat my dan bao mian:D after that went Pet's Lover
to buy xiao yi's hamster de wheel. hahas. then pei go buy tights and took
Mrt home. saw Jiaen at JE mrt station. hahas!!

buying guitar tomorrow!!! so excited!!

will my back recover?

Friday, August 7, 2009 ,

9:05 PM

back from Kbox! :D from 2 to 6plus. godly~! hahas.
so shiok! heehees. it took me more than an hour to reach
home lor. took 99 from Clementi and i reach home like
afew mins b4 8?? lol..

feeeling so tired now.. oh well, busy day tomorrow.
my back is seriously killing me!! godly~
going see doctor soon...

getting my guitar soon:D
will post a photo of it once i got it:D
lalala~

unable to let go..

unable to forget.

Wednesday, August 5, 2009 ,

4:33 PM

hoho.. school had been fine. i'm currently using draft.blogger.com.
you can upload image, change font size or what so ever. you should
try it too. hahas..

Horoscope reading and tarot cards are super duper popular in my

class now. xD chinese lessons are seriously super boring.. tsk tsk.

bio test post-poned to next wed. godly.. busy wed.. zz..

going get my guitar on Monday:D

Tuesday, August 4, 2009 ,

7:32 PM

here for a short post...
school ends at 1230 on friday, no HMT lesson and
no training!! wahaha~! going Kbox with Lijie and
yaoqing after school on friday:D looking forward to
friday! lalala~

godly, godly, godly...

I REALLY NEED A BREAK!

♥
xo. SHIMIN 170194. Gone. September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 October 2010 November 2010 December 2010 January 2011 February 2011 March 2011 Thankew. Remove and I'll peel off your skin! Hero: Xuewen. Host: Blogger Base codes: xavqior and Stac'ey	Friday, August 28, 2009 , 9:19 PM LOUSY TRAINING, LOUSY DAY! i kept asking myself if whatever i had done today is right or wrong. and it seems like, i'm made a mistake. i notice that J had been 'disappearing' suddenly. so i kept my eyes on him after he came back lor. then i found out that he's actually going out to smoke with B and JF. i went to Mr lee and told him. GODLY. Mr Lee was super duper fierce!! on my way back to ISH, i suddenly felt that maybe i should just take it as i don't know anything. but still, the thought that i'm the captain came into my mind. i wanted to make this team a disciplined one. i can't just let anyone disappearing from training. started to feel lousy... then, KS gave attitude to coach and was being kicked out out FB. GODLY! i asked myself, why is this happening? i'm just a super duper lousy captain. i FAILED to be a good leader, i'm not a good leader. i kept asking myself, why wasn't i able to disciplined? is it because i'm not as strict and fierce as last year? or is it, i'm NOTING in my juniors' eyes? and now, i'm asking myself, as a leader, what is my job? lastly, was told to tell those graduated seniors not to come back during our trainings. godly. being a leader is not easy. with so many juniors under me, and, my vice-captain is only sec 2. i don't know how to handle..... i'm a lousy captain.. i totally break down on Wednesday. DM talked to me and i was kinda being forced to talk about something that i took a long time to put it behind me and take it as nothing had happened. and now, i don't know how to face it! what am i suppose to face it??? i can't face it all alone by myself, but i can't avoid. what can i do? there's no one i can confront to.. in the past, i still have him. Wednesday, August 26, 2009 , 5:37 PM shimin, stay strong! stay the way like you had always been. jiu suan xiao rong shi jia de, ye yao xiao zhe mian dui yi qie... Monday, August 24, 2009 , 7:09 PM Aha!! it had been quite some time since i update my blog with a proper post. lols.. hmmm.. will start going for PE lessons and FB training starting this week:D well, can't be bothered about my back anymore. it doesn't seems to get any better. lols. i can't possibly watse my time and wait till it fully recover bahx.. had been busy with stuff?? xD hmmm.. Guitar lesson on sat was fine. time flewike don;t know what.. hahas. after lesson, went Lot 1 for dinner with Da Yi and Xiao Yi. reached home around 9plus? hahas. late eh? xD hmm.. went ah ma house on Sunday. Ah ma can talk le!! :D but, we all know, she won't last long.. hmmm.. will make an effort to go visit ah ma once a week:D after that, went JP with mummy. wahaha~! went to NET and bought 2 tops:D i love the pink and purple in colour de top. wahaha~! after that, mummy went out while i headed home and chiong homework and do revision. i'm so guai~! xD hmmm.. oh, starting to becoeme more and more bhb in front of my FB juniors. heehees. seriously hope will get to be this close with that batch till i step down. lols. went JP after school with Jengila and Kenneth. went LJS for lunch then pei Kenneth go Wallet Shop buy wallet. after that, me and jengila went to buy balloon. Helium gas de leh! i paid 3 dollars for it. cause mine will last for 3 days:D very nice. then will fly here fly there in my room. xD after that, pei jengila go home change and take some work and came my house to do homework. lol. me and jengila went crazy la. hahas. xD hmmm.. PE tomorrow. FB?? VB?? math test tomorrow. GAMBATEH!:D My balloon!!:D Tuesday, August 18, 2009 , 7:25 PM haven't been blogging for quite sometime.. nothing much too. lols. currently, headache about PRINTER. computer totally went dead and now need to install the printer to laptop. GODLY! will update a proper one soon.. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY EDDY! ( i owe him de. xD) Thursday, August 13, 2009 , 6:59 PM hmmm.. had been feeling quite stress recently!!! especially during today's Maths lesson. GODLY~! but still, managed to survive through. Zzzz. was told that only half the class passed the Maths test, oh well, i'll be in the FAIL group. Zzzz. godly. Bio test tomorrow. Zzz.. have yet to complete HMT compo which due tomorrow!! english CA reflection or whatever you call that which is due tomorrow!! Mahs homework which is also due tomorrow!! history homework which is also due tomorrow! someone just kill me right now! and i noticed i left my file in school. or did i lost it? GODLY~ hopefully IT'S UNDER MY GODLY TABLE! went Lot 1 with Adela, Eunice, Millie and Jia En. had lunch, walked around, went to the playground and played with those small children and we got chase out? the damn security guard said it's for children between 5-12. but the board states it's DESIGNED for children between 5-12, not FOR children between 5-12. very shitty security guard!!! after that, walked around again and took MRT home. godly! godly! godly! feeling super duper.. i also don't know what's that stupid feeling. Zzzz.... seriously, i need a break. Monday, August 10, 2009 , 3:44 PM sis choose to run away, choose not to face it. but i choose to face it together with mum. i can't choose to run away from reality. because, mum needs someone there for her. if i choose not to face it, she'll be even more depressed. what can i do? i asked myself this question throughout the whole night. but i can't seems to get an answer.... to side by my mum or stand by my dad? i wish, i'll never get an answer. what can i do? so many things happening at the same time, i can't accept but i have to. with a possibility of going for a major operation if things don't get well and forcing myself not to let those tears roll down my cheek, forcing a smile on my face as if it doesn't matter to me. but no one knows. i didn't want all this to happen. i want everyone to be together. no one knows how hurt i am. no one knows how lonely i am.......... i had wanted dad's love, dad's care & concern.. but i got none of it..... Sunday, August 9, 2009 , 9:11 PM hoho~! finally got my guitar~ but it's not purple in colour.. i bought a Black one instead:D i like the feel and the sound. gosh! hahas.. so happy about it la! lalala~! quite expensive though. 150 for the guitar and 20 for the guitar bag. hahas. The boss very nice. the original price for the bag is 28 then he give me discount. wahaha~! 170 can buy lor. lols. will be chionging homework tomorrow:D my BLACK Acoustic Guitar! :D my Classical and Acoustic Guitars! :D P.S. i only slept for 5 hours. Zzzz. Saturday, August 8, 2009 , 10:12 PM went to see physician with xiao yi in the afternoon. godly sia~! the physician crack my body until like don't know what sia. Zzz.. can hear the bones cracking lor! GODLY~ then after everything, he said my bone is out of position. i don't know how i should react. i thought it isn't serious.. until when i reached home, my dad said it's no joke. cause it's my spine bone out of position. Zzz.. no more trainings for me.. tsk tsk. guitar ended at 7.. super LATE right??? godly. after lesson, went Lot 1 with xiao for dinner. wahaha~! LOT 1 GOT Kobayashi leh! so happy~ went to eat my dan bao mian:D after that went Pet's Lover to buy xiao yi's hamster de wheel. hahas. then pei go buy tights and took Mrt home. saw Jiaen at JE mrt station. hahas!! buying guitar tomorrow!!! so excited!! will my back recover? Friday, August 7, 2009 , 9:05 PM back from Kbox! :D from 2 to 6plus. godly~! hahas. so shiok! heehees. it took me more than an hour to reach home lor. took 99 from Clementi and i reach home like afew mins b4 8?? lol.. feeeling so tired now.. oh well, busy day tomorrow. my back is seriously killing me!! godly~ going see doctor soon... getting my guitar soon:D will post a photo of it once i got it:D lalala~ unable to let go.. unable to forget. Wednesday, August 5, 2009 , 4:33 PM hoho.. school had been fine. i'm currently using draft.blogger.com. you can upload image, change font size or what so ever. you should try it too. hahas.. Horoscope reading and tarot cards are super duper popular in my class now. xD chinese lessons are seriously super boring.. tsk tsk. bio test post-poned to next wed. godly.. busy wed.. zz.. going get my guitar on Monday:D Tuesday, August 4, 2009 , 7:32 PM here for a short post... school ends at 1230 on friday, no HMT lesson and no training!! wahaha~! going Kbox with Lijie and yaoqing after school on friday:D looking forward to friday! lalala~ godly, godly, godly... I REALLY NEED A BREAK!