SHIMIN
170194.
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
,
10:13 PM
i am sorry.. really very sorry.. i didn't want to mention
anything about it. but since you said everything out,
i shouldn't avoid anymore... maybe staying as friends
is the best for both of us..
i can't give you what you want, whatever that you gave me,
wasn't what i want. i'm sorry. i hope we can still be good friends.
this time round, you were the one who ended everything.
i'm sorry. it's all my fault...
i'm sorry...
i still can't let him go..
i still love him....
i'm unable to forget...
i still miss him alot alot.
i still love him alot alot..
i thought i could let go of everything,
but i'm wrong....
i'm feeling so miserable inside...
我还是放不下。。。
i still love him....
i'm unable to forget...
i still miss him alot alot.
i still love him alot alot..
i thought i could let go of everything,
but i'm wrong....
i'm feeling so miserable inside...
我还是放不下。。。
,
3:25 PM
just woke up from my nice afternoon nap. lols.
reached home 12+ and straight laid flat on my bed. lols.
School was being declared HALF DAY for everyone today!
*weeS~!*
i was totally OFF today! slept non-stop! zzz. first time exam period
keep falling sick. O.o! went JEC eat my DAN MIAN after school with
SHIQI! hahas. then went popular buy pen and home-d. yea, boring day though.
PUBLIC HOLIDAY tomorrow! yay! tuition early early morning 10AM~!
i need my COFFEE! lols.
will be MIA till after exams! i mean it this time.
don't need worry about me la. i will
take care of myself de. you also must take good care arh.
don't later Thursday i go meet you, you bandage here bandage there.
HAHAS!!
joking joking la! hahas.
see you on thursday!
Monday, September 29, 2008
,
6:14 PM
school as usual.. just that gastric was already
hurting early in the morning.
didn't even do PE. nb chat chat with Vanessa lor. lols.
fell asleep during PHY lesson. they doing presentation.
Zzz.. super duper tired sia. cannot tahan sia.
zzz.. really need to start mugging like hell le.
had not been studying recently.. =x fell asleep during EL lesson again.
lols. Xu lao shi never come, then got relief teacher.
told li ching i won't be going for HCL lesson from 2-3
de cause having flu then super duper xin ku. then she inform
that relief teacher. then she say what ask head of
department first. okie lor. she super cb sia.
she asked me i where not feeling well, then i say i flu lor.
she seriously super cb la. she say she also got flu what. cb, rite?
lols. in the end, she also lan lan let me go. lols.
peii Vanessa go find YQ then went to meet jx.
went KFC, alot of ppl so walked away.. but saw Fang Fang.
hahas! decided to go in di siao lor. lols.
di siao her then she at there act innocent. lols.
leaving that time, vanessa got
say Bye bye jun xian's ex. she say what..
ACBC sia. lol! then i say, diam la. hahas! di siao nia.
then Vanessa left together with YQ.. went 461 slacked with jx lor.
then went 466 slacked awhile and home-d:D hoho~!
i read a super interesting diary:D
YUPP!! I AM BAD!!! cause i'm going to say, WHAT THE FUCK!?
she's so damn bitchy... *oops* HAHAS!
tuition later. ivan say he will be late. Zz.. nevermind. i wait. lols.
i know i had changed quite alot after that broke up.
i know i am not who i used to be.
but,
ever thought that this is the real me?
i am who i am now, but like last time.
i didn't use coarse language because of him.
i'm not me when i'm with him.
this is then the real me.
i say what i'm unhappy with, i say what i'm happy with.
i say whatever i want, do whatever i want, go wherever i want
&
no one can stop me.
YES! it's still not late to know THIS IS WHO I AM.
i might have change, but i have changed for the better.
(don't bloody hell count that i uses coarse language la.)
when i'm happy, i will laugh.
when i am sad, i will cry.
when i am angry, i will say "get lost!"
when i am pissed off, i will say "fuck off!"
you GL me, i will GL back.
you KP me, i will KP back.
but if you're a XL kia, so sorry, i'm not XL.
if no one is able to make my day, i myself will make my own day.
i have the ability to do so.
i am sorry for the pain i gave you.
i am sorry for saying things that are not meant to be said.
i am sorry to cause your tears to drop down once more because
of my fucking words and attitude towards you..
i am sorry for hurting you over and over again.
D,i'm still learning. i'm still learning how to love.
i know it's really very tough to love somewho whose heart
had been ripped off. i totally understand your feelings.
i didn't mean to hurt you so deeply. boy, don't ever cry because
of me ever again. DON'T CRY!
because you'll only made me felt that we're not suppose to be together.
i'm someone whose heart had been totally ripped off.
you got to be prepared for the worst,but trust me..
for you,i will learn to love again...
你对我的好，我都知道。
我会努力对你更好。
i know i am a bad girlfriend.
i know i am not who i used to be.
but,
ever thought that this is the real me?
i am who i am now, but like last time.
i didn't use coarse language because of him.
i'm not me when i'm with him.
this is then the real me.
i say what i'm unhappy with, i say what i'm happy with.
i say whatever i want, do whatever i want, go wherever i want
&
no one can stop me.
YES! it's still not late to know THIS IS WHO I AM.
i might have change, but i have changed for the better.
(don't bloody hell count that i uses coarse language la.)
when i'm happy, i will laugh.
when i am sad, i will cry.
when i am angry, i will say "get lost!"
when i am pissed off, i will say "fuck off!"
you GL me, i will GL back.
you KP me, i will KP back.
but if you're a XL kia, so sorry, i'm not XL.
if no one is able to make my day, i myself will make my own day.
i have the ability to do so.
i am sorry for saying things that are not meant to be said.
i am sorry to cause your tears to drop down once more because
of my fucking words and attitude towards you..
i am sorry for hurting you over and over again.
D,i'm still learning. i'm still learning how to love.
i know it's really very tough to love somewho whose heart
had been ripped off. i totally understand your feelings.
i didn't mean to hurt you so deeply. boy, don't ever cry because
of me ever again. DON'T CRY!
because you'll only made me felt that we're not suppose to be together.
i'm someone whose heart had been totally ripped off.
you got to be prepared for the worst,but trust me..
for you,i will learn to love again...
你对我的好，我都知道。
我会努力对你更好。
i know i am a bad girlfriend.
Sunday, September 28, 2008
,
5:45 PM
got woken up by jx's call. lols. chatted awhile and went back
to sleep. wahaha! woke up at around 9.20 instead of 9.00. Zzz.
super duper tired la. slept at 1+.. cause had been chatting with jx.
ehs.. had some probs and took a long time to settle lor.
went out at 11 and went to meet jx. lols. DX was there too. hahas.
slacked at 466, then walked to DX's house, slacked again, went eat.
went back DX's block and slacked. and he home-d. stay there and slacked
with jx before walking to bus-stop. jx sent me home:D
xie xie ni la, jx... hahas..
suppose to be studying now. but, lols. later la. i'm lazy.. lols.
lalala~! weather is fucking hot today. roars~!
i want watch Painted Skin!!!
D=Dearest
Saturday, September 27, 2008
,
10:05 PM
i am so going to start a new life...
welcome to my new life!
you guys are going to say.. i know what i am
doing, i know my feelings very clearly..
i once lost you because i took you for granted,
but now, things are different. i'm very sure of
my feelings, i know what i am doing, i know
what i want. in the past, you were always there for me
that's why i didn't really care about i feel for you..
but now i know, boy, iloveyou..
&
because i once lost you,
i can't lose you again