SHIMIN
170194.
Monday, March 30, 2009
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4:31 PM
Zzz. wasn't really in good mood after getting my Progress Repoet
Card. i flunked every sunjects that had got the marks keyed in.
i my had did well for Chem and quite okie for HCL, but my other
subjects seriously sucks. i don't get it. i can't seems to score well
for both Maths. Zz..
mid-year in coming soon. and i must and i will stduy hard and do my
very best!!!!!
JIAYOU!
hope mum won't kill me after taking a look at my progree report card. Zzz..
Sunday, March 29, 2009
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5:46 PM
ACTIONS SPEAKS LOUDER THAN WORDS.
ever thought of you actually telling someone how much you love
them, how much they means to you, how much you cherish them,
but your actions only showed that...
-they're nothing to you.
-they're just part of the journey of your life.
-they're not as important as how you told them;you took them for granted.
-mostly importantly, they can't even feel that you love them.
any idea how much you can hurt them when this actually happen?
think carefully, if this happens to you, how will you feel? you may
feel it's okie, you don't bother about it. but still, have you ever spare a
thought for the others? words not meant to be hurtful...
SAY WHAT YOU MEAN AND MEAN WHAT YOU SAY..
went Yuki Yaki with DH, SQ and Wilson. after eating, walked around Marina
Sqaure and then Suntec before heading home. my printer was giving me
a real big headache and i finally solve it! Always, paper jam, cannot recognise
ink cartridge and the stuff printed was overlapped! Zzz.. tsk tsk, school tomorrow.
i don't have the mood to do History Longman Book. Zzz. but still, i guess i'll
complete it later. tsk tsk.
i'm sorry, my mood wasn't so good just now..
because, actions speaks louder than words.
do you get it?
Saturday, March 28, 2009
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1:09 PM
training was fine. just that juniors are really very cmi.
went over aunt house to pass cousin Aaron's stuff and went
JP meet sis for dinner. went buy present for Qing Yuan and headed
home, bath and went JP meet cousin and went Qing Yuan's house
together:)
cab back home around 9 cause we all wana watch 9pm de show.
hahas. it's been like 2years ever since i saw them. lols. so fast, they all
grow up le. lols.
hmm.. staying at home whole day today. lols. gor came over last night to
watch the horror show together. lols.
yuki yaki tomorrow! weeS~! i'm looking forward to it. lalala~!
Monday, March 23, 2009
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4:32 PM
was thinking of a word to describe my feeling and i finally found it.
learnt that from Jasmin.low... i'm feeling shack. i know it's not a nice
word to use but, somehow, that's the only word that can describe my
feelings....
i never want things to turn out this way. please, tell me what i can do to
make things turn better for us. things are worst and worst.
i was damn worried about you when you didn't reply my sms.
i couldn't concentrate on doing my things. i can't do anything.
i was totally lost and worried like hell. when you said it's just something
small yet i made it till so serious, you seriously made me angry and hurt.
i'm sorry, i know i was too harsh on my words. but, this is me...
i'm really very sorry. i'm someone who will go straight out for my own stand.
i asked you to reconsider about us is not because i wana end everything.
it's just that....
i had always wanted to keep you by my side regardless of anything,
but i never spare a thought for you. i never get to know how you feeling
about us, i never get to know what's on your mind. and your actions made me
felt that i'm not your girlfriend, i'm just someone abit more special as compared
to others. actions speak louder than words.....
i'm sorry, i guess, i'm just not good enough.....
i'm sorry, i guess, i'm not a good girlfriend....
i'm sorry, i've never want things to turn out this way...
Sunday, March 22, 2009
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7:09 PM
today can be counted as my worst day ever in my whole
of 15years! i met an asshole! i was waiting for 99
after my guitar lesson and there's this guy walking towards
my direction and showing me his dick! wth!!!! totally shocked
the hell out of me la! but i manage to stay calm and pretend
i never saw anything. godly~!
seriously, at the moment, i feel like cutting his dick off! he's so
damn sick! kns! went 'kbox' with relatives. told them that incident
and they were laughing their heads off.Zzz.. nevermind.
today marks the end of holidays! sian la.. tsk tsk.
i didn't complete history homework. Zzzz.
went westmall meet sis. wahaha! had sakae for lunch! lalala~!
after that, cab to her house. spent the whole day there and they
sent me us at night, lalala. my nephew is so cute la!!
Friday, March 20, 2009
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8:15 PM
holidays are coming to an end.. sian. so fast jiu friday le.
Zzz... tuition tomorrow early morning. tsk tsk.
hmm. nothing much la. Zz
i guess, i still need more time bahs.
yes, i hate her.
Thursday, March 19, 2009
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10:46 AM
things are just not going well....
i'm really hoping things will get better.
but i know, it's not going to be easy.
i'm really very tired.
in F, it's C.
now in FB, it's S..
why are things turning out in this way.
is it because we're not meant to be together?
no one is able to foresee what's going to
happen. you said you don't know what will
happen in the future, but for now, you'll
cherish me. but for me, it's different..
it's true no one will knows what will happen
in the future, but i was so confident and sure
that even in the future, there'll still be you.
but it seems like, you're not sure about
our future too..... now, i've lost confident
in our future. i'm starting to lose the
confident in loving you more than i love myself...
we both agreed to reconsider our relationship....
before you come up with a decision...
ask yourself, do you still love me as much as you
use to?
think carefully, do you really love me?
will your life be better without me?
are you sure, you'll love me like the way i love you?
if you're unsure, i guess, we're just a mistake..
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
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3:04 PM
holidays aren't so good after all. homeworks, homeworks, and
still, homeworks, tsk tsk... completed most of the homeworks.
left a few more. as much as possilbe, hopefully cab get SS and History
homework done lastest by tomorrow so that i'll have Friday to chill out.
Zzz..
i wonder what's wrong, i slept at 12plus AM yesterday night and
i actually woke up at 8. Zzz.. amazing! like old people sia. cause
old people don't need so much of sleeping hours. if it's in the past,
i bet i'll only wke up at around 10am. Zzz.. lao liao.Zzz
holidays sort of sucks. or is it because i'm sick then alot of things
can't be done? like going jogging and swimming? Zzz. how i wish
i can go out and play till i drop for the whole day. Zz. but while, this
is life. i need to work extra hard for the next 2years, and then, i'll
get to chill out and rule the world! =x abit too much le. Zzz..
suppose to go DNA workshop today, but nah, i'm sick & i'm seriously
not faking. Zzz.. hopefully will be able to get well soon. though had been
movie-ing, but still complete homework. SHIT! assessment book not
done yet. Zzz maybe i shall chiong assessment tonight.
well, i guess, that's all.
godly, i'm blogging so seriously. Zzzz
Sunday, March 15, 2009
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5:55 PM
long time since i update my going to die blog. lols. nothing much though.
hmm.. went NTUC get some stuff before heading. slack till 2plus
and went swimming with SQ and SH. didn't get to swim
much though. cause it rained! sian. weather's so cold
till cannot tahan and headed home. Zz.. i'm falling sick again.
guess is yesterday's BBQ. Zzz. throat abit itchy itchy de. XD
HOLIDAYS ARE HERE! but, also sian la. alot of homework.
do till siao only. Zzzz
BBQ yesterday with 3e5!! long story la. in short, fun!! XD love
3e5! hahas. that pig went along too=) hahas.lay, eat, BBQ and
home-d. lobang jiaen's dad car home. heehees. face turned
red after drinking. XD but i had a good sleep. but now, sore throat.
Zz..
happy first month.
hopefully, we'll be
able to go on till the very
end.
iloveyou.
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
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6:32 PM
hmm.. just completed Ace Learning. god,kill me. whatever it is,
i failed all my MATHS TESTS!!!! i was confident in passing the
lastest E maths class test. but... i failed again. 8 out of 20. tsk tsk.
can get 17 de lor. ALL CARELESS~! must work on my carelessness
le. Zzz.. Common test tomorrow.. MUST PASS!! Zzz..
yesterday... dear came over and we played Checkers. wahaha! i won!
XD and we slacked all the way till 5plus and he went home. hmmmm. Zzz..
sunday. boring old sunday. nevermind.. sat was fine. went out with Dear whole
day:) meet at Cityhall and watched Marlyn And Me. super nice movie!! made me
cried la. Marlyn so cute la.. lols. after that, went Chinatown point to get the
Vongola Family Rings and it was raining! went to Dear's aunt house there for dinner
and pei him went to Tampinese and i took MRT home;D
hmmm.. nothing much le... looking forward to this sat~!!
3E5 FIRST BBQ &... IT'S A SPECIAL DAY. LALALA~!
going to study hard le~~! tsk tsk.
Friday, March 6, 2009
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8:19 PM
things have been going fine in school... other than
study, go home, study, go home, what else? tsk tsk.
yea, boring life. tsk tsk. but things are not going well
at home. just got scolded. kns. suppose is nothing de lor,
then all because of my sis, i got scolded too. is seriously,
what the fish! my sis called telling my mum her friend's
buying her belated birthday present. it's a bag and she's
forking out 20bucks and my mum don't allow but i wasn't
sure what sis said then my mum jiu bu shuang say she settle
everything herself. then she go complain to my dad then my dad
complain to her about me buying new slippers. kns. he reached
home so damn long le now then complain confirm is because
mum complained about sis to him and seriously, it's all my sis's
fault but mum's like pushing all the bloody hell blame on me.
please la, i use my own money to buy everything de lor.
i already made myself damn clear that i wana get a psp
once i got my salary. but, she didn't allow me to.. i didn't say
anything. then now i wana get it liao, she was nagging about me
anyhow spending money. please la, also not last min de lor.
i said it since last year for god's sack la. slippers.. though i already
have that white pair, but i really like that kind that's why wana buy.
not like my sis, she said she want that kappa bag for going out de.
in the end, she use it as school bag and now going spoil liao
and she used it only for like 2months lor. then now getting new
one, dad never say anything, mum complained to her and dad
complained back to her about me and obviously, i received all
the stupid scoldings and trust me, i'm so not going to reach home
early tomorrow.
i don't understand, why i'm always the one receiving the bad treatments
and she's always getting the best of the best? she wants it, she gets it almost
immediately. me leh? beg dao yao si still will receive scoldings. tsk tsk.
she wants a phone, she got it in less than 2weeks, she wants a laptop,
she got it in less than 1week, she wants a slipper, she got it the next day.
she wants a nike sports shoes as school shoes, she got it the day after.
in short, she never seems to get whatever she wants more than 1month.
i wanted a phone and i waited for 2whole years. i wanted a laptop and i'm
still waiting. i want a slippers that i really like, need to beg till yao si but still
got scoldings and naggings. i want a PSP, i waited for 1year. and obviously,
YES! I CAN'T STAND LIVING HERE! things were better when i didn't even
talked to them last time. maybe i should jolly well do that. i didn't say anything
doesn't mean i don't care or mind. it's that, i'm being respectful and i treasure
you as my family member, friend or what so ever. but everyone has their
limits. you all are far too much and i find it too hard to accept it. you all are
just being baised because she can get better results than me. but so what?
i'm not self praising but, when you all quarrel with her, i'm always being the saint.
i'm always being the one to help you guys make things better.
yet, i'm somehow transparent and also sore eye to you all when you all don't need
me. like now, you all squeezed me almost dry, you all cast me aside, leaving me
alone. only when you all need money or need my help, then you all will treat me
like your god.
i'm not a dog or toy or whatever so. i'm a human. i do have feelings
like you all do. i might give a heck care look, but deep inside, i really
care. don't pretend to love me just because i'm somehow needed.
i would rather you all just cast me aside and leave me all alone till the
very end...
readers, if you wish to leave a comment about this post, don't tell me stuff
like i'm thinking on the negative side or whatever shit. try saying that to me
and i'll reply you with this:
YOU'RE NOT ME, YOU'RE NOT LIVING IN THE SAME HOUSE I AM.
YOU DO NOT HAVE THE SAME PARENTS, SISTER LIKE I DO.
and, seriously, i'm quite fed up with those juniors. C girls i mean.
nevermind, the post is getting far too long. i'll do my complainings
to boyfriend tomorrow. tsk tsk.
but i'm glad laifu's always there. but today will be the last day he's coming
back. tsk tsk. now, it's all up to me and mario. Laifu had always been a good leader,
good captain.. thanks Laifu!
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
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6:35 PM
hmmm.. E maths common test was cancelled due to some reasons.
lols. nevermind. EL test was like shit. forget it. whole class kena
DC cause one thermometer was lost after we had our chem practical
last week. suay la. went jp with Jiaen, Nicholas and Eunic after school.
had lunch at Subway and went on separate ways except for me &
Nicholas. went Comis connection to check out the Vongola Family
ring, don't have. tsk tsk. but i mange to find it online. wahaha.
hmmm.. walked around JP with Nicholas and talked about soem stuff
and home-d. nothing much though. looking forward to sat!! XD
Sunday, March 1, 2009
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6:06 PM
boring sunday as usual. headed to ah ma house after lesson
and home-ed at around 1.. reach home and complete all
homework. all completed! wahaha~!
hmmm, went back workplace yesterday. was suppose to go
out with him but he working half day and lao ma say wana treat
him and wilson then he also ask me go. lols. after lunch, went
bugis. Zzz.. went sim lim square and check whether got the
game Innocent Life. then we wanted to walk to Suntec, but,
zzz. WE WERE LOST! oh ya, so qiao sia, saw soon keat. lols.
walk walk walk, then we manage to see a bus stop. lucky
got bus to suntec. Zzz. he love to walk.. not that i don't like.
it's that, want walk also have to be in right attire ma. Zzz..
walked around suntec and bought my Innocent Life! costed me a
bomb! 53bucks! godly~! but i dont regret getting it. i love it! wahaha!
home-d around 5+ and reached home around 7+..
relatives were at my house playing mahjong. and i was like,
no wonder mum never cook. ~.~ hahas!!
left training early cause going the concert. godly~! was rushing like
hell. meet him 4.30 at boon lay but i reached around 5. zZz. went to
Newton and a damn stupid thing happened. he couldn't tap out.
cause, his stay was too long. he entered the system at around 3+
and reached newton at 5+. 2hrs. he had to pay 2bucks. Zzz.
O.o!! we were lost! no choice, cab down. lucky not very ex. Zzz.
concert was fine. but i was only looking forward to concert band's
performance. he was damn tired so we left at 9.30. lols. reached home
around 11+.. hmm.. nice concert though:)
my condom phone is coming back tomorrow!! i miss my phone la!!
T.T