I'm really tired of all these.

Friday, August 28, 2009 ,

9:19 PM

LOUSY TRAINING, LOUSY DAY!

i kept asking myself if whatever i had done today

is right or wrong. and it seems like, i'm made a mistake.

i notice that J had been 'disappearing' suddenly. so i

kept my eyes on him after he came back lor. then i found

out that he's actually going out to smoke with B and JF.

i went to Mr lee and told him. GODLY. Mr Lee was super

duper fierce!! on my way back to ISH, i suddenly felt that

maybe i should just take it as i don't know anything. but still,

the thought that i'm the captain came into my mind.

i wanted to make this team a disciplined one. i can't

just let anyone disappearing from training.

started to feel lousy...

then, KS gave attitude to coach and was being kicked out

out FB. GODLY! i asked myself, why is this happening?

i'm just a super duper lousy captain. i FAILED to be a good

leader, i'm not a good leader. i kept asking myself, why wasn't

i able to disciplined? is it because i'm not as strict and fierce as

last year? or is it, i'm NOTING in my juniors' eyes? and now,

i'm asking myself, as a leader, what is my job?

lastly, was told to tell those graduated seniors not to come back

during our trainings. godly. being a leader is not easy.

with so many juniors under me, and, my vice-captain is only sec 2.

i don't know how to handle.....

i'm a lousy captain..

i totally break down on Wednesday. DM talked to me and i was kinda

being forced to talk about something that i took a long time to put it

behind me and take it as nothing had happened. and now, i don't know

how to face it! what am i suppose to face it???

i can't face it all alone by myself, but i can't avoid.

what can i do? there's no one i can confront to..

in the past, i still have him.

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