I'm really tired of all these.

Tuesday, April 7, 2009 ,

6:36 PM

i mean it when i said i didn't want things to turn out this way.
i mean it when i said you've changed.
i mean it when i said i could feel the difference.
i mean it when i said i could feel the gap between us.
i mean it when i said i could feel someone else in there.
i mean it when i said i could feel that place no longer belong to me.
i mean it when i said i can't feel you anymore.
i mean it when i said i wanted you real back badly..
but do you care????

you seems perfectly fine the next morning.
i'm not sure if it's just an act or you really don't
care.. what do you mean when you said
you don't know you can do anymore?

i know this kind of relationship wasn't what you
wanted and wasn't what you thought it would be.
same here.. i'm tired of this kind of relationship..
i went through once before and i know how hurting,
painful it is.you never experience this before, can you
really understand how i feel? can you really understand
why am i being so sensitive? can you really understand
why i'm always complaining??

never had i wanted to complain anything. but once i said
something out, that means, i really cannot take it anymore.
i don't want apologies, i don't want regrets. i just want you to
learn and to understand. you reminded me of him....
you never said you want me back after the first break up.
yet, i was the one who wanted you to be back. if you had said
you don't wish to break up, you don't wish to lose me, i would have
said, "i'm sorry, i let matters and feelings took over me. i take back my
words." but you didn't, you said you'll respect my decision.
this made me think of you wanting her to be back for the next whole
of 3 months after she left you. but when i left you, you didn't said a word.
that was what hurts the most. after that day, i had been crying to sleep.
it's not easy to pretend nothing had happened. i admit i've hurt you when i
wanted to break up, but i've learnt my lesson and i'll never hurt you again.
but you hurt me over and over again, that's why you don't understand truely
when i said, "what if loving you hurts?" yesterday night.

lastly, i mean it when i said, i love you, my dear....
7moredays to our second month. will we last?

you no longer say you wish to meet up with me.
you no longer say you miss me..
it's just like how he treated me...
And, this hurts alot...

♥
xo. SHIMIN 170194. Gone. September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 October 2010 November 2010 December 2010 January 2011 February 2011 March 2011 Thankew. Remove and I'll peel off your skin! Hero: Xuewen. Host: Blogger Base codes: xavqior and Stac'ey	Tuesday, April 7, 2009 , 6:36 PM i mean it when i said i didn't want things to turn out this way. i mean it when i said you've changed. i mean it when i said i could feel the difference. i mean it when i said i could feel the gap between us. i mean it when i said i could feel someone else in there. i mean it when i said i could feel that place no longer belong to me. i mean it when i said i can't feel you anymore. i mean it when i said i wanted you real back badly.. but do you care???? you seems perfectly fine the next morning. i'm not sure if it's just an act or you really don't care.. what do you mean when you said you don't know you can do anymore? i know this kind of relationship wasn't what you wanted and wasn't what you thought it would be. same here.. i'm tired of this kind of relationship.. i went through once before and i know how hurting, painful it is.you never experience this before, can you really understand how i feel? can you really understand why am i being so sensitive? can you really understand why i'm always complaining?? never had i wanted to complain anything. but once i said something out, that means, i really cannot take it anymore. i don't want apologies, i don't want regrets. i just want you to learn and to understand. you reminded me of him.... you never said you want me back after the first break up. yet, i was the one who wanted you to be back. if you had said you don't wish to break up, you don't wish to lose me, i would have said, "i'm sorry, i let matters and feelings took over me. i take back my words." but you didn't, you said you'll respect my decision. this made me think of you wanting her to be back for the next whole of 3 months after she left you. but when i left you, you didn't said a word. that was what hurts the most. after that day, i had been crying to sleep. it's not easy to pretend nothing had happened. i admit i've hurt you when i wanted to break up, but i've learnt my lesson and i'll never hurt you again. but you hurt me over and over again, that's why you don't understand truely when i said, "what if loving you hurts?" yesterday night. lastly, i mean it when i said, i love you, my dear.... 7moredays to our second month. will we last? you no longer say you wish to meet up with me. you no longer say you miss me.. it's just like how he treated me... And, this hurts alot...