I'm really tired of all these.

Wednesday, October 15, 2008 ,

8:23 PM

what's the point of asking me to explain everything when you don't even trust me from the start?
what's the point of telling me how rude i shouldn't be when talking to him when he doesn't even talk to me nicely?
what's the point of LIVING TOGETHER WHEN I HATES HIM AS MUCH AS HE HATES ME?!
what's the point of having him as my father when he had never love me before?

he totally thinks that he's not at fault. he thinks that he has the right to talk to me in that kind of harsh tone just because he's my father.
he totally hates me. he totally look down on me. i admit i may be at fault just now, but i don't see a need to apologise.
he said he seriously feel like giving me two tight slap! he said he seriously hope i can get out of this house and never return home!
he said if i have the ability, i can just quit school and go out at work. he said he can stop supporting me from now onwards.
what had he gave me? MONEY, MONEY & still MONEY! what's so great about money?
i can still survive without him giving me MONEY! from the very moment i was born, he had
never gave me love. he putted all his love, care and concern on sis. he didn't even bothered to
take a second look at me.
for the past few months, i tried to improve the relationship between, but he don't give a damn.

mum came to talk to me. she had decided to file a divorce with dad. yeah, he's so going to blame me for that. YES! EVERYTHING IS ALL MY FAULT! YOU HAPPY?!
but honestly, what's the point of living together when we can't get along well?
how i wish i can leave this house! how i wish they can file a divorce ASAP!
i feel so terrible! i feel so sick & tired of this family.
i told myself i'll never cry, yet here i am, crying and saying out my agony to a non-living thing.
i wish someone will be here for me. i wish to talk to someone. i wish that someone will take me out of this house so i can cry my heart out.... but i just notice...
no one is here for me..
all of a sudden, i felt so. alone.
where's that 'someone'?
there had never been anyone.

i know i shouldn't be saying this but please..
please please please please please please!
just file a divorce...

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