I'm really tired of all these.

Friday, October 3, 2008 ,

1:16 PM

i actually manage to wake up at 4AM to study my history!
3cheers for me!! studied till 6:D lucky i didn't bai si sei my sleeping
time.. cause whatever i studied did come out. wahaha.
Maths part quite okie la. damn. can't score above 40 le. Zzz..

yea yea yea, i cut my hair short!:D

fucking hell. you bombed me again! you fucking hell
don't know bomb me how many times liao. nb la...

sorry guys. i wasn't really angry just now.. i. i just don't know
what to do.i wasn't angry. i was just.. scare... but i can't show it out,
so i turned everything into anger... yea, i'm an idoit...
when he told me he can't meet, i was scare.. he's just like him. everytime bomb me.
bomb dao i really very scare le..i really don't know what to do..

i was feeling very lost and scare when you bomb me.i don't know why...
i guess, it's because he used to bomb me alot of times too, that's why..
i really hate ppl bombing me. i really hate it..
yet you still bomb me again and again. and yes, i hate you!
the moment you decided to bomb me, you had lost the trust i had in you.
you had already lost the smile i can give you.
in short, you 'killed' me...
i'm not your pet! you asked for me, i will be right in front of you.
when i asked for you, you bomb me. what's the point of saying
sorry when you don't even mean it?
when you apologise to someone for something, it indirectly means that,
you're sorry for what you had done and you will never do it ever again.
THINK CAREFULLY MAN! don't fucking hell just apologise because you think
an apology is needed and you fucking hell don't mean it!
you're just like Ace... you never mean what you say.you just say things because
you feel that there's a need to. but you will clearly forget about it mins later..
totally just like Ace...
Ace left me when i needed him the most. i turned into you, not because i had lost
him. it was because you were the one who came first into my mind.
during that time, i couldn't think of anything. but you were the first to appear in my mind.
i thought you really cared. i thought you really mean what you said.
but everything turned out to be just rubbish...
because if you really care about me,you won't dumped me all alone just like the way he did,
you wouldn't had left or dao me when i needed you the most.
you wouldn't even bomb me no matter what. and you wouldn't even mind waiting for me no matter how late i am when we were suppose to meet..
just like other ppl, you're only able to see the pain i gave you, the so-called 'care, concern and love' you showered on me, but you never see and know how much you hurt me at the same time too.. i'm weak, i'm fragile. were you even aware of that? you jolly well just walked off and dumped me all alone in the dark. you didn't care, you didn't even bother to take a second look at how lost i was during that time.
you couldn't see how much you hurt me too, because you were blinded by your own emotions, feelings. time to use more of your heart and ears instead of eyes.

&
i swear every word is true.
i know you don't like me comparing you with him but, don't you see?? don't you still see and understand?!

i finally understand.. you no longer love me.
you no longer will be back.
i'm just a fool...
because, to you,
love is all about trust, once you lose it, it's over.
the trust in our love was lost. thus, to you,
everything's over. everything had come to an end.
A full stop that cannot be replace, erase..
my last time crying over you..

♥
xo. SHIMIN 170194. Gone. September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 October 2010 November 2010 December 2010 January 2011 February 2011 March 2011 Thankew. Remove and I'll peel off your skin! Hero: Xuewen. Host: Blogger Base codes: xavqior and Stac'ey	Friday, October 3, 2008 , 1:16 PM i actually manage to wake up at 4AM to study my history! 3cheers for me!! studied till 6:D lucky i didn't bai si sei my sleeping time.. cause whatever i studied did come out. wahaha. Maths part quite okie la. damn. can't score above 40 le. Zzz.. yea yea yea, i cut my hair short!:D fucking hell. you bombed me again! you fucking hell don't know bomb me how many times liao. nb la... sorry guys. i wasn't really angry just now.. i. i just don't know what to do.i wasn't angry. i was just.. scare... but i can't show it out, so i turned everything into anger... yea, i'm an idoit... when he told me he can't meet, i was scare.. he's just like him. everytime bomb me. bomb dao i really very scare le..i really don't know what to do.. i was feeling very lost and scare when you bomb me.i don't know why... i guess, it's because he used to bomb me alot of times too, that's why.. i really hate ppl bombing me. i really hate it.. yet you still bomb me again and again. and yes, i hate you! the moment you decided to bomb me, you had lost the trust i had in you. you had already lost the smile i can give you. in short, you 'killed' me... i'm not your pet! you asked for me, i will be right in front of you. when i asked for you, you bomb me. what's the point of saying sorry when you don't even mean it? when you apologise to someone for something, it indirectly means that, you're sorry for what you had done and you will never do it ever again. THINK CAREFULLY MAN! don't fucking hell just apologise because you think an apology is needed and you fucking hell don't mean it! you're just like Ace... you never mean what you say.you just say things because you feel that there's a need to. but you will clearly forget about it mins later.. totally just like Ace... Ace left me when i needed him the most. i turned into you, not because i had lost him. it was because you were the one who came first into my mind. during that time, i couldn't think of anything. but you were the first to appear in my mind. i thought you really cared. i thought you really mean what you said. but everything turned out to be just rubbish... because if you really care about me,you won't dumped me all alone just like the way he did, you wouldn't had left or dao me when i needed you the most. you wouldn't even bomb me no matter what. and you wouldn't even mind waiting for me no matter how late i am when we were suppose to meet.. just like other ppl, you're only able to see the pain i gave you, the so-called 'care, concern and love' you showered on me, but you never see and know how much you hurt me at the same time too.. i'm weak, i'm fragile. were you even aware of that? you jolly well just walked off and dumped me all alone in the dark. you didn't care, you didn't even bother to take a second look at how lost i was during that time. you couldn't see how much you hurt me too, because you were blinded by your own emotions, feelings. time to use more of your heart and ears instead of eyes. & i swear every word is true. i know you don't like me comparing you with him but, don't you see?? don't you still see and understand?! i finally understand.. you no longer love me. you no longer will be back. i'm just a fool... because, to you, love is all about trust, once you lose it, it's over. the trust in our love was lost. thus, to you, everything's over. everything had come to an end. A full stop that cannot be replace, erase.. my last time crying over you..