I'm really tired of all these.

Friday, January 23, 2009 ,

11:19 PM

when you spent a Thursday like a normal day.
you report to school, you went out to chill out
with your friends after school and just one single
phone call changed your life totally.

headed straight down to ah ma house after receiving
a phone call from Dad saying something's wrong with
ah gong. yes, we all rushed down immediately.
i thought it's just ah gong's not feeling well, but, no..
ah gong's no longer breathing when i reach there.
he doesn't respond to us, he doesn't breath...

he's gone... he was only back from Hospital
on Tuesday and 2 days after he discharged,
he's gone forever. i never thought i'll lose him for he had always
been quite good despite having a stroke for the past 3 years.
he can still kick, pull and sit up on his own..

memories of ah gong fleshed back into my head when dad
was driving uncle's car home. and i heard dad saying that
he's the one who caused Ah gong's death. my heart sank.
and i don't know why he's pushing the blame to himself.

A normal Thursday ended the way no one predicted.

didn't went school today. woke up super early. 7.30.
headed down to ah gong's wake at around 9+.
went off to school to take my homework fro Cheng Chua
at around 12.20. security guard let me in despite me wearing
slippers. he thought i pon school, i said no, my grandfather
passed away. i rushed to the hall to get my homework and
rushed to JP get my new bag changed and back to ah gong's wake.

stayed there till 4 before i went back home to bath and help mum, dad
to get some stuff. they're staying overnight at the wake. lost my house keys!
it was in the spoil new zinc bag. lucky MX and guys were at JP. they helped
me get back my keys. thanks lot.

rushed back to wake again and stayed till 10+ and er yi
sent me and sis home. thanks. need to go back wake
tomorrow and sunday. sunday's the last day and i'll never
get to see him. i regretted not paying him a visit every once
a week. in my whole of 15years, yesterday was my FIRST time
i witnessed my ah ma crying so... so.. i can't think of a word
to describe it. ah ma was totally heartbroken. ah ma and ah gong
had always been loving couples. in my whole of 145years,
today was the first time i told ah gong, iloveyou,ahgong.

despite all this, i really have to thank Baby!
he didn't leave me all alone. he had always been there
for me. though he asked if i need time alone, but
very soon, he'll text me again.
dear, do you know how glad i am when i received your sms?
thanks for being there for me when i needed someone there for me.
thanks for always being present when i needed you the most.
you're the first guy who had always been there for me. you're never
un-contactable and because i have you by my side,
i'm able to stay strong. baby, i love you more than anyone, anything.
though i thought you'll be gone after that day, but still,
my love for you ever since that day had only been increasing.
i'm loving you with my whole heart, my dear.
i'm willingly to wait for you no matter how long it takes.
but please,
stay by my side till the very end
and tell me you love me..
iloveyou,mydear.
i'm having more and more confidence in us.
i really trust you like i never did.
so please, don't leave me.

i've learnt to cherish and treasure the ones i love even
more now. i'll let them know how much i love them
before everything's too late. even if i'm the one
getting hurt in the end, i don't mind at all.

i told mum this morning,
" can we cancel the thought of moving out for awhile??"
all i know was that, dad really need us by his side
and i can't choose to leave him all alone now.
maybe he don't love me, but i still love him.
cause no matter what, he's still my father.

♥
xo. SHIMIN 170194. Gone. September 2008 October 2008 November 2008 December 2008 January 2009 February 2009 March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 October 2010 November 2010 December 2010 January 2011 February 2011 March 2011 Thankew. Remove and I'll peel off your skin! Hero: Xuewen. Host: Blogger Base codes: xavqior and Stac'ey	Friday, January 23, 2009 , 11:19 PM when you spent a Thursday like a normal day. you report to school, you went out to chill out with your friends after school and just one single phone call changed your life totally. headed straight down to ah ma house after receiving a phone call from Dad saying something's wrong with ah gong. yes, we all rushed down immediately. i thought it's just ah gong's not feeling well, but, no.. ah gong's no longer breathing when i reach there. he doesn't respond to us, he doesn't breath... he's gone... he was only back from Hospital on Tuesday and 2 days after he discharged, he's gone forever. i never thought i'll lose him for he had always been quite good despite having a stroke for the past 3 years. he can still kick, pull and sit up on his own.. memories of ah gong fleshed back into my head when dad was driving uncle's car home. and i heard dad saying that he's the one who caused Ah gong's death. my heart sank. and i don't know why he's pushing the blame to himself. A normal Thursday ended the way no one predicted. didn't went school today. woke up super early. 7.30. headed down to ah gong's wake at around 9+. went off to school to take my homework fro Cheng Chua at around 12.20. security guard let me in despite me wearing slippers. he thought i pon school, i said no, my grandfather passed away. i rushed to the hall to get my homework and rushed to JP get my new bag changed and back to ah gong's wake. stayed there till 4 before i went back home to bath and help mum, dad to get some stuff. they're staying overnight at the wake. lost my house keys! it was in the spoil new zinc bag. lucky MX and guys were at JP. they helped me get back my keys. thanks lot. rushed back to wake again and stayed till 10+ and er yi sent me and sis home. thanks. need to go back wake tomorrow and sunday. sunday's the last day and i'll never get to see him. i regretted not paying him a visit every once a week. in my whole of 15years, yesterday was my FIRST time i witnessed my ah ma crying so... so.. i can't think of a word to describe it. ah ma was totally heartbroken. ah ma and ah gong had always been loving couples. in my whole of 145years, today was the first time i told ah gong, iloveyou,ahgong. despite all this, i really have to thank Baby! he didn't leave me all alone. he had always been there for me. though he asked if i need time alone, but very soon, he'll text me again. dear, do you know how glad i am when i received your sms? thanks for being there for me when i needed someone there for me. thanks for always being present when i needed you the most. you're the first guy who had always been there for me. you're never un-contactable and because i have you by my side, i'm able to stay strong. baby, i love you more than anyone, anything. though i thought you'll be gone after that day, but still, my love for you ever since that day had only been increasing. i'm loving you with my whole heart, my dear. i'm willingly to wait for you no matter how long it takes. but please, stay by my side till the very end and tell me you love me.. iloveyou,mydear. i'm having more and more confidence in us. i really trust you like i never did. so please, don't leave me. i've learnt to cherish and treasure the ones i love even more now. i'll let them know how much i love them before everything's too late. even if i'm the one getting hurt in the end, i don't mind at all. i told mum this morning, " can we cancel the thought of moving out for awhile??" all i know was that, dad really need us by his side and i can't choose to leave him all alone now. maybe he don't love me, but i still love him. cause no matter what, he's still my father.